I am so freaking damn tired I could sleep for a week
I don’t know what happened but I forgot how it felt to fall in love. How happy, sad and angry you could be if you’re in love. To be jealous is one dangerous feeling. I forgot how it feels but heck, I know it can tear your heart into pieces. I wonder how my feelings and mind would be mixed up when the time comes that I would feel these things again. Man, it would definitely be one pain in the ass. But I do think that I can still identify what I’m feeling or what level am I that’s for sure
Let’s go chrissy chrissy chrissy til’ we se the sun. ~
Tae to hahahahahahahahahahaha bv :( =)))))
I want to earn my own money. I know it would be hard but hey, I wouldn’t want my parents to blab about how many times I ask money from them whenever I go out. Well, I would just ask if I deserve it though but still I also need to work to lose some of these baby fats and escape this hell hole. Ahhhh, I couldn’t wait to have a job this summer even though I’m not a college student I still want to work puh lease
We visited 7 churches all over Makati, Manila and some near Quezon. It was my first time actually to do all these. It’s just fascinating. Nocturn roadtrips are awesome. There were definitely tons of people in every church we visit. It’s quite surprising because people still do the traditions. When we went to Manila, the buildings were still Spanish-inspired and it was cool. I admire old structures though it creeps me out. But nonetheless, they’re unbelievably beautiful. Along the road were teenagers going together and I thought that someday me and my friends would visit 14 churches soon. It’ll be awesome and I couldn’t wait
Why can’t just somebody notice and realize that I’m not the one you think who I am? That I’m not some robot who only knows how to smile and laugh. That I too, am vulnerable and just waiting for someone who’ll give me a nice long hug and I’ll just be hating myself at the moment for letting someone see me cry, hurt and weak.
I’m just another teenager whose apparently crazy enough for letting the thought of cutting herself pass through her head. Hell, even I screw myself for being angry at a person/situation and just tends to forget it eventually. And unluckily, some people just takes that attitude of mine for granted.
I feel like I forget things easily because I wanted them to. To forget and just move on. I want to escape all of the crap that’s eating everything inside me. It’s like I hate the world but I can’t seem to find an explanation why. That when a friend asks me why, I just tend to tell them ‘because it sucks being me’ and some crap.
I just want to find and meet this very person who’ll understand me and break the walls between ourselves and I’d be willing enough to let him do it. I want to let myself fall because I trust him so much that he’ll catch me and accept me at my worst. I just want someone who’ll see everything through me and still loves me unconditionally.
If I just can, why won’t I? Who wants to be in this hell hole with you guys, anyway?
I’ve been gone a while now, haven’t I? I’ve been reading quite a lot actually to get away from this hell hole.
I’m slowly dying yet no one seems to notice..
No one actually ever seems to notice that I’m sad and upset just because I keep putting this fake smile all over my face.
This is the thing about me when I like someone who surprisingly likes me too. I’d do everything just to make ‘this’ work. Yeah well, I like him so the least I can do is try, right? Both parties should exert effort to whatever they have. But sometimes, I tend to get hurt because it turns out that I was the one who cares more, I’m the only one who wants to make things work. And it apparently sucks because this is me and I can’t change the way I like and/or love people. Though someday, I might meet someone worth it who won’t take me for granted. And I’m quite serious holding onto this little piece hope I have left
